soleirolia

i've done it.
i've made my choice anddd i've chosen the full time job over part time school. I would've chosen school in a heart beat if it was either full time or at least a part time degree. But it's not. So yes.

To be honest, I am scared shitless and the position is hardly one a young (HAHAHA) girl like me would choose. I have to admit, I wasn't jumping for joy when I received the call. I would've been miles happier and excited if I had been offered the other position but i didn't. C'est la vie. You win some, you lose some. But i figured working for the gah/men couldn't be that bad right? RIGHT?! I could use it as a stepping stone. I do have to start somewhere so this shall be it. I'm really worried that I can't carry out the job well. It's going to be mad challenging but I would have to try it. Who knows I might actually end up loving it right?

I forsee cancellation of plans, not seeing sham for weeks at a time and calling one of my friends up crying because some apek just screamed at me. Tentatively I'm due for work on the 19th, which is the day Sham leaves for Thailand for 3 weeks. I might as well keep myself busy instead of moping around at home missing him.

I feel like I'm convincing myself that I've made the right choice. I hope I have. I don't know for sure now but I guess only time will tell.

While my best friends and boyfriend are slaving away in school/work/camp, I have been sitting at home, dying of boredom. I have never been so bored. Doesn't help that my laptops (yes with an S) are both wonky. With the old one, the IE just closes itself when i open too many tabs and with the new one, ah, there's this problem of a blue screen THAT JUST WON'T GO AWAY!!! Even after being sent back to ASUS for servicing. The laptop's barely a week old and it's been reformatted. AND THEN I've been waiting for someone, anyone to text and say "can work on ... at ..." but noooooooooooooooooooo. No one asks to be covered when i want to work.

Ah FML.
doesn't help that i'm broke as hell.
and did you know, my parents are having more fun than i am? HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE KANASAI

okay bye.

my ponyo is gone :(

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

lemau and sedih and geram x 10 million.
macam nak campak semuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa kasut at sham and whoever's in charge at oh/see/ass.