I myself am made entirely of flaws,

stitched together with good intentions.

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#282 ...time will tell
i've done it.
i've made my choice anddd i've chosen the full time job over part time school. I would've chosen school in a heart beat if it was either full time or at least a part time degree. But it's not. So yes.

To be honest, I am scared shitless and the position is hardly one a young (HAHAHA) girl like me would choose. I have to admit, I wasn't jumping for joy when I received the call. I would've been miles happier and excited if I had been offered the other position but i didn't. C'est la vie. You win some, you lose some. But i figured working for the gah/men couldn't be that bad right? RIGHT?! I could use it as a stepping stone. I do have to start somewhere so this shall be it. I'm really worried that I can't carry out the job well. It's going to be mad challenging but I would have to try it. Who knows I might actually end up loving it right?

I forsee cancellation of plans, not seeing sham for weeks at a time and calling one of my friends up crying because some apek just screamed at me. Tentatively I'm due for work on the 19th, which is the day Sham leaves for Thailand for 3 weeks. I might as well keep myself busy instead of moping around at home missing him.

I feel like I'm convincing myself that I've made the right choice. I hope I have. I don't know for sure now but I guess only time will tell.

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